There are some days I cant bare it. Most days I can. Tonight however, im being kept up by the writer in me, You see, I let myself go once and it took me 2 full years to recover . Not so sure ive fully recovered if im honest but im getting back to myself but... ......im not sure if I want to. At the risk of embarrassing myself im going to tell you a little about my love life. A very long time ago I met a young lady who i subconsciously fell in love with. I didnt realize it at the time but it was a most inadvertent sneaky thing. A subtle ninja attack trick that one day had me in disbelief of how far she had infiltrated my soul . Should i beg her to give me back myself as if she would care, or as if she knows but it was a secret crush and dear friends let me tell you, Secret crushes are THE WORST. Speak up. Let it out. Dont assume, go tell it on the mountain. Take a risk and try as you may to be happy. In the event...