Every Second Counts.
There are some days I cant bare it. Most days I can.
Tonight however, im being kept up by the writer in me,
You see, I let myself go once and it took me 2 full years
to recover.
Not so sure ive fully recovered if im honest but im getting back to myself but...
......im not sure if I want to.
At the risk of embarrassing myself im going to tell you a little about my love life.
A very long time ago I met a young lady who i subconsciously fell in love with.
I didnt realize it at the time but it was a most inadvertent sneaky thing.
A subtle ninja attack trick that one day had me in disbelief of how far she had infiltrated my soul.
Should i beg her to give me back myself as if she would care, or as if she knows but it was a secret crush and dear friends let me tell you,
Secret crushes are THE WORST.
Speak up. Let it out. Dont assume, go tell it on the mountain. Take a risk and try as you may to be happy. In the event you fail, at least you know youve tried and its OUT of your system and your done. Over with.
Over the years ive come to realize that Love is such an easy thing because it is a choice.
However, affection is not a choice. Feelings are as a result of some unconscious irresistible sinister and illogical tyranny which if not properly handle with forceful and abrasive care could lead to danger and disaster.
I lay in bed thinking about her. Why. Its been 8 years.
There are times when i miss my ex's but it is usually very specific. Something they used to say. Or a restaurant we went to together and the food she would always order. (Side note. I stopped going to IHOP....long story)
I havent told you about her. And im not sure that I will anymore, im changing my mind.
But i will say this though, she is very loyal, a very distinct voice and a propensity to be a sweet woman or an unrelenting arsehole.
Let me spare you some fairy tells and skip to a conclusion.
Walls dont mean anything, and if your smart enough to be on your own island those wouldnt mean anything either.
There is someone out there that comes into your life without bells and whistles, without waving any flags, just rowing the boat towards you, one row at a time.
They dont climb your walls, they just hang around them and lean on them till it crumbles in.
I will say you should stop living in your past and look to the future but let the past teach us something it is after all the past.
And if you dont learn anything from all the junk ive written learn this.
When the time comes he who shall overcome your heart will do it with subtlety,
However friend,
Do make every conscious effort to realize whats happening and not be clueless to know theyre taking over your heart. Hold on for as long as you can before you let go.
Every second counts.
Tonight however, im being kept up by the writer in me,
You see, I let myself go once and it took me 2 full years
to recover.
Not so sure ive fully recovered if im honest but im getting back to myself but...
......im not sure if I want to.
At the risk of embarrassing myself im going to tell you a little about my love life.
A very long time ago I met a young lady who i subconsciously fell in love with.
I didnt realize it at the time but it was a most inadvertent sneaky thing.
A subtle ninja attack trick that one day had me in disbelief of how far she had infiltrated my soul.
Should i beg her to give me back myself as if she would care, or as if she knows but it was a secret crush and dear friends let me tell you,
Secret crushes are THE WORST.
Speak up. Let it out. Dont assume, go tell it on the mountain. Take a risk and try as you may to be happy. In the event you fail, at least you know youve tried and its OUT of your system and your done. Over with.
Over the years ive come to realize that Love is such an easy thing because it is a choice.
However, affection is not a choice. Feelings are as a result of some unconscious irresistible sinister and illogical tyranny which if not properly handle with forceful and abrasive care could lead to danger and disaster.
I lay in bed thinking about her. Why. Its been 8 years.
There are times when i miss my ex's but it is usually very specific. Something they used to say. Or a restaurant we went to together and the food she would always order. (Side note. I stopped going to IHOP....long story)
I havent told you about her. And im not sure that I will anymore, im changing my mind.
But i will say this though, she is very loyal, a very distinct voice and a propensity to be a sweet woman or an unrelenting arsehole.
Let me spare you some fairy tells and skip to a conclusion.
Walls dont mean anything, and if your smart enough to be on your own island those wouldnt mean anything either.
There is someone out there that comes into your life without bells and whistles, without waving any flags, just rowing the boat towards you, one row at a time.
They dont climb your walls, they just hang around them and lean on them till it crumbles in.
I will say you should stop living in your past and look to the future but let the past teach us something it is after all the past.
And if you dont learn anything from all the junk ive written learn this.
When the time comes he who shall overcome your heart will do it with subtlety,
However friend,
Do make every conscious effort to realize whats happening and not be clueless to know theyre taking over your heart. Hold on for as long as you can before you let go.
Every second counts.
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