Folab's Chill Corner

January 2nd 2012, I posted a video on Google+ which was Benny's Hinn's version of the song.  My life was drifting. In no particular direction. Working 3-4 jobs doing everything but what i studied to go to school for.  It was indeed a time in my life that wasnt different from the yesteryear but one thing is constant.  I still sing praises to your name oh lord.  Because your name is great. And I give you all the glory.  Not because this year ive made much more money than ive ever made in my life.  Or been to places that ive never been to before. Or sat and ate with millionaires.  But because you hear when I cry.  Your name is greatly to be praised. Your wisdom is unsearchable.  You are God like non-other and your love is capturing.  Through it all I will continue to love and to serve you.  Let my heart be yours and yours only. No woman will come close.  You are life and life the ...

Dear Lover, Politics aside ive been looking for you for a long time now, and even though finding things has never been a strong point for me, it seems that i cant give up on us. Another winter is coming, physicality aside i feel an emotional coldness brewing inside of me that has spurned from my recent non-achievements with love. Time is running out on us. I find that it takes me a long time to paddle to this magic island where men decide to make women their wives and do the grown up stuff of by starting a family but... Despite my hard work and intentional efforts i seem to have arrived at this island alone. Im confused and wondering where you are. There are mermaids belly dancing everywhere around this island but i chose to focus on the Y OU + ME = Happy Ever After.  But what is happening before is not pleasant and i dont like it. Winter is coming... Ive written many things to you since our date Ive dreamed about what you and I would be like. I just dont q...

What does one do when you lose your job?  In the midst of a lack of opportunity things are indeed serious and there is sometimes the need for improvisation.  A ball player meets opposition. Its a seasoned veteran.  One of those hardcore stone-walled defenders. Battle tested and seen it all. But there is something about youthful enthusiasm that will not be denied. There is something about the naivety gene that loves to express itself in the face of adversity as if it doesnt recognize danger at all.  This ability to come up with an improvised solution is often show cased by those who recognize fear to be a useless and emotion.  It could also be seen as a metaphor for the survival skills needed being that you are staring poverty in the face and knowing fully well (in some cases) what it is like to be on the wrong side of the tracks or an AT $ T phone bill.  Your eyes get sharper. Your body feels lighter. Your feet need to move quickly and your mi...

Its 2012, Most of us cant remember 2011 maybe because it was challenging for some more than others but id like to take the time out to say a big Happy New Year and here's wishing you a most eventful and prosperous 2012.  VanP  

There are some days I cant bare it. Most days I can.  Tonight however, im being kept up by the writer in me, You see, I let myself go once  and it took me 2 full  years  to recover .  Not so sure ive fully recovered if im honest but im getting back to myself but... ......im not sure if I want to. At the risk of embarrassing myself im going to tell you a little about my love life.  A very long time ago I met a young lady who i subconsciously fell in love with. I didnt realize it at the time but it was a most inadvertent sneaky thing.  A subtle ninja attack trick that one day had me in disbelief of how far she had infiltrated my soul .  Should i beg her to give me back myself as if she would care, or as if she knows but it was a secret crush and dear friends let me tell you, Secret crushes are THE WORST. Speak up. Let it out. Dont assume, go tell it on the mountain. Take a risk and try as you may to be happy. In the event...

Have you ever prayed to the 8 pound, 6 ounce dont even know a word yet new born baby Jesus? And when/if you have to, do you picture baby Jesus in that smelly stable with horse dung and cow foot prints all over the place or is this imagination a more peaceful convocation of serenity with Jesus in his little manger and surrounded by the Gold given to him by wise men?  The baby Jesus didnt have a place to stay. And whats even more shocking? Neither did the grown up Jesus. The bible says. " Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay his head."  Its an interesting fact that even though Jesus was born in a manger, even though he didnt have a place of his own, He was always Sought out by powerful and influential men. Everybody wanted to see him, to hear what he said, to witness the raw intensity of his persona.  By definition a box is a variety of containers used for permanent or temporary storage. According to that def...

When I was a young chappy, I used to stare at the stars. Seriously, I used to look up so much that even till this day people around me look up to figure out what im looking at. The truth is, right before my grand-father died. He used to look down all the time. He was sick to his bones..literally. And none of use knew what to do to fix him. He had something...that made him look....defeated. So he would always look down. I knew the picture didnt look right..so I told him. "Grandpa, look up" He'd look at me and gently grimace. And just like a defeated man, look down again. Shortly after he died. It was cancer. And ive been looking up ever since. Motive. Thoughts. What are your motives for doing the things you do that people call you "weird" for? Can they hear your thoughts? Do they know what your thinking when your thinking? Our experiences in life are supposed to teach us lessons along the way. Having said that, dont judge my motives if you dont k...