Folab's Chill Corner

I set my sails on the wingless wings of poesy. A small ship set its anchor on an island for lovers and for a brief moment, you were mine.  It felt just like the day I graduated. The twisting of emotions inside me left me with conceiving short breaths. Each one with An overwhelmingly fierce happiness spinning out of control and partially tempered by disbelief.... Mine.  There was a song I heard in my head.  It was a song for Zula. A sweet little song with no melody. A catchy tune with no beat. A mouthy song with no lyrics.  It played endlessly in my sleep; where there are no illusions or complexities. Just the simplicity of a you and me.  Or maybe an appreciation for an us.  Even if, temporary.  It danced around my soul. Piece by piece taking over each ventricle and cabinet of my heart.  Why? Little babbles and baby sparks. And unrevealed mystery behind your eye lashes. Y our eyes are a tabernacle where stars are birthed. An enchanted dreamworld....

Pharaohs of the past created Architectural marvels while their Darker counter parts were busy waging war against each other and "dancing their ass off"... In a single generational quantum leap, the powers that be have buried the N-word but can never bury foolishness or the inability for moral constructiveness. We who are by standers have indeed caught stray bullets from both sides of the equation more so from the dancing. We cannot continue to keep feeding conversations that are fueled with ridiculous assertions to which darkness is equated with ignorance, but perhaps with the unknown or the unseen or the loss of identity. Like a slow fairy tale told around a camp fire before sleep we too struggle to excavate the deep amongst us to find what substantiates certain seemingly natural but uncontrollable behavior. Our rigidity makes it impossible to confront us directly with bare hands...but play the right tune and a nod of the head breaks out like an uncontrollable smile...as...

Ive found that its easier to love because of you.  And its not just the feeling of raw emotions but the easy consistency of it.  Consistency with Love is such a thing that men struggle with terribly and Ive had my struggles.   But something inside me wont let you go.  You are so easy to love. You presence is so reassuring. There is a knowing when you are around. There is a certainty of peace and a persistence of joy.  You are Alpha and Omega. Which to me means that in this life of already written and and yet to be written stories you know the outcome. You know the beginning from the end. You knew i would write this today. And you know that i think about you often even though i dont have the words to say.  Even though I try to get a quiet moment for clarification.  Aspiring to live a full life is to give you my full love. And I admit.  The things that i have gone through has opened areas of me that i didnt kno...

January 2nd 2012, I posted a video on Google+ which was Benny's Hinn's version of the song.  My life was drifting. In no particular direction. Working 3-4 jobs doing everything but what i studied to go to school for.  It was indeed a time in my life that wasnt different from the yesteryear but one thing is constant.  I still sing praises to your name oh lord.  Because your name is great. And I give you all the glory.  Not because this year ive made much more money than ive ever made in my life.  Or been to places that ive never been to before. Or sat and ate with millionaires.  But because you hear when I cry.  Your name is greatly to be praised. Your wisdom is unsearchable.  You are God like non-other and your love is capturing.  Through it all I will continue to love and to serve you.  Let my heart be yours and yours only. No woman will come close.  You are life and life the ...

Dear Lover, Politics aside ive been looking for you for a long time now, and even though finding things has never been a strong point for me, it seems that i cant give up on us. Another winter is coming, physicality aside i feel an emotional coldness brewing inside of me that has spurned from my recent non-achievements with love. Time is running out on us. I find that it takes me a long time to paddle to this magic island where men decide to make women their wives and do the grown up stuff of by starting a family but... Despite my hard work and intentional efforts i seem to have arrived at this island alone. Im confused and wondering where you are. There are mermaids belly dancing everywhere around this island but i chose to focus on the Y OU + ME = Happy Ever After.  But what is happening before is not pleasant and i dont like it. Winter is coming... Ive written many things to you since our date Ive dreamed about what you and I would be like. I just dont q...

What does one do when you lose your job?  In the midst of a lack of opportunity things are indeed serious and there is sometimes the need for improvisation.  A ball player meets opposition. Its a seasoned veteran.  One of those hardcore stone-walled defenders. Battle tested and seen it all. But there is something about youthful enthusiasm that will not be denied. There is something about the naivety gene that loves to express itself in the face of adversity as if it doesnt recognize danger at all.  This ability to come up with an improvised solution is often show cased by those who recognize fear to be a useless and emotion.  It could also be seen as a metaphor for the survival skills needed being that you are staring poverty in the face and knowing fully well (in some cases) what it is like to be on the wrong side of the tracks or an AT $ T phone bill.  Your eyes get sharper. Your body feels lighter. Your feet need to move quickly and your mi...

Its 2012, Most of us cant remember 2011 maybe because it was challenging for some more than others but id like to take the time out to say a big Happy New Year and here's wishing you a most eventful and prosperous 2012.  VanP